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  “Are those your favorite?” Benjamin asked, smiling down at her. “They’re mine, too!” Then he turned to me, “What do you say, Miss Lewis?”

  “I think you’re full of surprises,” I smiled. Then, seeing the lit-up joy on Harper’s face, I added, “I’m in!”

  “Good,” Benjamin reached into the cupboard and pulled out two more packets of Ramen.

  “Noodles for three, coming right up!”

  5

  BENJAMIN

  “What do you think, Harper?” I asked, watching as the little girl slurped up the last bit of noodle broth from her bowl. “Who makes better Ramen, me, or Miss Lewis?”

  Harper dropped her bowl down onto the glass coffee table, and her eyes wandered between me and Lia.

  “You,” she decided finally, smacking her lips and pointing at me.

  “Harper!” Lia exclaimed, clutching her heart dramatically. “I thought you loved my Ramen noodles!”

  “They’re ok,” Harper shrugged, “But Uncle Benjamin’s are better.”

  My heart swelled when I heard her say that, and the sudden burst of pride had nothing to do with the Ramen noodle victory. Rather, it had everything to do with the look of wonder in Harper’s eyes as she glanced up at me. In the span of a few hours I had gone from being a scary stranger, to being the cool uncle with an exciting apartment and an endless supply of Ramen noodles. In Harper’s eyes, that made me the coolest guy in Charleston.

  I was Uncle Benjamin.

  My bear was content, happy to do anything the cub wanted. I hadn’t realized how empty my apartment felt until now.

  I sat back on the leather couch, taking in the scene, the three of us huddled around the glass coffee table in my living room, eating Ramen noodles while some Disney movie about a talking fish played on the big screen TV in the background.

  I didn’t often entertain guests at my apartment, but when I did this was far from the typical scene. Maybe that was what made tonight feel even more endearing. The hearty smell of soupy noodles filled the air, instead of cheap perfume and booze; the sound of Harper laughing gleefully at the movie, instead of the whiney squeals of women snapping selfies that they would later use as proof that they had fucked someone famous.

  I wasn’t sure what it was but something about tonight just felt… right. I could see it on Harper’s face. The kind of contented belonging that I always craved myself as a cub, but could never find. Even now, as I looked back on my entire childhood, I couldn’t remember one instance that had felt as intimate or personal as tonight.

  “It’s past your bedtime, missy,” Lia said suddenly, glancing at the digital clock display under the TV.

  “Nooooo,” Harper whined, not wanting the night to end.

  “You’ve gotta get some sleep,” I said, taking Lia’s side. “Besides, the sooner you do, the sooner we can all hang out again.”

  Lia shot me a glare, but I was already ushering Harper down the hallway towards one of the apartment’s guest bedrooms.

  “It’s not pink or princessy,” I said, “But if you do have to stay for a while, maybe you can help me decorate it!”

  I pushed open the dark wooden door to the guest bedroom and flicked on the light. Like the rest of the apartment, it had been completely fitted with modern and sleek pieces, custom ordered by the interior designer my mother hired when I first moved in. The interior designer had worked with nearly all of The Shyft Lofts’s tenants, decorating each apartment differently to suit the personality and lifestyle of its inhabitant.

  For me, that custom decor ended up being dark woods and lots of glass; sleek, modern lines, and clean finishes. I think some of the other shifters chose colors that made them feel good. A lion on the third floor had actually savannah grass put in his bathroom. It was a little over the top to me, but whatever. I’ve always loved the decor in my apartment, and I’ve always thought that it suited me perfectly, but now, seeing Harper look around the room glumly, I realized that it might not be so well suited for a cub.

  “Maybe Benjamin can take you shopping after school tomorrow,” Lia suggested quickly, her eyes flashing desperately back to me.

  “Of course we can!” I agreed, smiling down at Harper. “I’ve meaning to decorate this room anyway, and now you can help me out!”

  Harper smiled, but she didn’t look entirely enthusiastic. Probably about as enthusiastic as I felt about the prospect of replacing my sleek and modern decor with bright, plasticky kid’s furniture.

  Oh well, I thought. It’s a small price to pay if it would make her feel a little bit more at home while she’s staying here, and the kid’s had a rough ride so far.

  “Come on,” Lia said, nodding at the bed. “It’s way too late for you to still be awake, missy.”

  I sat on the bed, while Lia took Harper into the attached bathroom. I knew there were spare toothbrushes, but I made a note to grab Harper some toiletries too.

  A few minutes later, Harper walked out with a huge grin on her face, her hair brushed out and she was drowning in one of my spare white t-shirts.

  “Looking good, kiddo,” I laughed as I stood and she bounded over to the bed.

  Harper climbed up onto the bed and scrambled to get under the covers quickly. Once she got herself situated, Lia and I both took a seat at the foot of the bed. I let Lia take over, flattening the sheets and smoothing out the pillows.

  “Miss Lewis,” Harper said reluctantly, “When am I going to see Mommy again?”

  “I don’t know,” Lia said gently, and I could tell she was conflicted about the answer. Torn between telling the awful truth, or telling a lie.

  “But you don’t need to worry about that,” I added quickly, and Harper’s eyes shifted to me. Even in the dim bedroom light, I could see the start of tears puddling under her eyes, and I wished there was something I could do. Something I could say to comfort her.

  “Everything is going to be ok,” I said. “I promise. Besides I’ll call Grampa and Gamma and we can visit with them.”

  I felt Lia’s eyes staring up at me, and I had a pretty good idea why. She was probably going to tell me that it was not a good idea to make promises that I couldn’t keep. But I didn’t need anyone to tell me that. That was a lesson I already learned the hard way. I would never make a promise I did not intend on keeping. And when I promised Harper that everything was going to be ok, I meant it. Our clan took care of our own.

  We said our goodnights, then Lia flicked off the bedroom light and gently closed the door. We padded softly down the hallway, back to the living room.

  Lia collapsed onto the couch and stifled a yawn, then glanced down at her cell phone on the coffee table as she shook the braid loose from her hair, letting the golden curls spill freely over her shoulder.

  “Still no word from CPS?” I asked.

  “Nothing,” she shook her head.

  “Looks like we’ll be having a sleepover,” I teased.

  “Nice try,” she said coolly, her eyes flashing up at me.

  “What’s the supposed to mean?” I frowned. I walked across the room to the wet bar and I pulled open the glass door to the wine fridge, flooding the floor with blue light. I bent down, selecting a fresh bottle of Pinot Grigio, and then I grabbed two glasses and a corkscrew and walked back towards the couch.

  “Come on,” Lia said, keeping her eyes tilted up at me, “I’m not an idiot. You’ve been flirting with me all night.”

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said, plopping onto the couch beside her. I started working at the foil wrapper on the wine bottle’s neck as she watched from her spot on the couch.

  “Really?” she eyed me doubtfully. “Pressing up against me when we walked in the door? Brushing your knee against mine during the movie? All those little glances and smiles?”

  She wasn’t wrong. Instead of making excuses, I offered a coy smile.

  “And now this?” she gestured to the wine bottle in my hands.

  “I figured we could enjoy a glass of wine wh
ile we wait for that phone call,” I shrugged innocently. “They don’t seem to be in any hurry.”

  “Mr. Johnson,” she snapped, “This little routine might work on other girls, but if you think you can charm your way into my pants with your flashy apartment and expensive wine…”

  “Are you saying I’m not charming?” I glanced up at her, and her eyes flashed.

  I stabbed the screw into the cork and started twisting, as I saw the resolve on her face soften.

  “I’m saying that your charms won’t work on me,” she said firmly.

  “Really?” I asked. I pried the cork out of the bottle and it made a gentle pop. Then I reached for one of the glasses and carefully poured the wine, watching it splash as it filled the glass.

  I offered the glass to her, but when she reached for it, I pulled it away.

  “Let’s not pretend that we don’t already know what I do to you,” I whispered, holding the glass out of her reach as she leaned towards me.

  “What are you talking about?” she gulped, her eyes finding mine.

  “I felt the way your body reacted to mine,” I said softly. “I felt the way I made your heart race and your blood rush…”

  “You surprised me,” she insisted, but the slight tremor in her voice told me that even she doesn’t believe what she was saying. “That’s all.”

  “You didn’t pull away, and you know who I am. What I am.” I reminded her.

  “I was just…”

  “What?”

  She shook her head, and when she reached forward for the wine glass I didn’t stop her from taking it. I watched her take a long, anguished sip before pouring myself a glass.

  “Nothing is happening between us,” she said firmly.

  “Fine,” I said. “Look me in the eye and tell me that you didn’t feel anything when your body touched mine.”

  “I don’t have to explain myself,” she protested, but her voice was more strained than firm.

  I closed the distance between us on the couch, and my knee brushed against hers. My bear wanted her, there was no denying that. And usually I didn’t deny him.

  “Then tell me to stop,” I challenged.

  “Give me one good reason why I shouldn’t tell you to stop,” she replied breathlessly, and I smiled because that was exactly what I wanted to hear. I took a sip of wine, then I set my glass on the table.

  As I brought my hand back up, I let my open palm catch on her knee, wrapping around her bare skin under the hem of her pencil skirt. She didn’t move away.

  “Mr. Johnson,” she gulped, but all the protest was gone from her voice. I was close enough to feel her heart pounding, vibrating between us.

  “Just say the word,” I whispered, squeezing her thigh. She inhaled heavily and her back arched towards me. Her nipples were hard again, piercing through her shirt, and as she licked the wine off of her glistening lips. I felt my own heart race, wondering how wet I was making her.

  Now there was no doubt that she wanted this, no doubt that her body was responding to mine, and no doubt that we both felt the fire between us. My cock stiffened in my pants, throbbing impatiently, but I reminded myself to stay in control. We may both know what she wanted, but that didn’t give me permission for all the things I wanted to do to her. Not to mention she was clearly still warming up to the shifter idea. If I lost control now, and a bear ended up in my living room, she’d run in panic. Not a great first impression.

  I leaned forward, burying my face into the soft milky skin of her neck but held my lips back. It was as much of a tease for me as it was for her. I wanted to taste her skin, wanted to fill my mouth with her warmth.

  “Tell me to stop,” I said again, trailing my lips along the underside of her jaw, then over her chin, until our mouths were just inches apart, separated only by her silent hesitation.

  And then Lia surprised me. She angled her face up suddenly, and pressed her lips firmly against mine.

  The contact made my need for her explode. I pressed my hand further up her skirt, exploring her bare thigh, while my other hand tangled through her soft blonde hair. My tongue spread her plump lips apart, licking away the leftover wine.

  I felt her hands crawl forward to reciprocate, carving out the shapes of my muscles through my dress shirt. I moved my hand up to her own cotton work shirt, feeling the soft tent of her hardened nipple with my palm, then clenched my fingers around her breast and squeezed until a soft moan broke free from her lips.

  I moved my hand up, plucking open the first button of her blouse, and then, out of nowhere, her phone buzzed urgently from the glass coffee table.

  Just as suddenly as the kiss began, it ended with her pulling away and reaching for the phone. Her eyes shifted between the phone’s digital screen, then up at me.

  “It’s CPS.”

  6

  LIA

  “Someone sure was out late,” Polly said, bending down to take a seat next to me on the schoolhouse steps. “Doing all those after-school activities,” she added, wiggling her eyebrows and licking her lips.

  “Shh!” I hissed, nudging her in the ribs. “This isn’t the appropriate time or place to talk about that.”

  “Ooooh” Polly squeals gleefully, “So something did go down with Mr. Tall Dark and Handsome?”

  “No,” I hissed. “Nothing went down. I just don’t want to have an adult conversation while we’re supposed to be focusing on the one-hundred screaming children that we’re responsible for keeping alive.”

  Polly rolled her eyes and slumped back onto the steps. She pulled a cheese stick from her paper lunch bag and ripped off the plastic wrapper.

  “They’re fine,” she said, waving a dismissive hand at the children that were skipping around the playground manically. “And besides, I think a little bit of adult conversation is exactly what we both need right now,” she shook her head at me. “If I have to have one more conversation about Thomas the Tank Engine, or whether eating finger paint will turn your poop blue--”

  “Did someone seriously ask you that?” I asked, trying my best not to laugh.

  “Yep,” Polly nodded solemnly. “Remind me to never have boys.”

  “I’ll do that,” I said, turning my attention back to the schoolyard.

  “So,” Polly prodded. “What happened last night?”

  “Nothing,” I said dismissively.

  “Well it must have been something. You’ve never stayed out that late. Especially not with a guy.”

  “He’s not a guy,” I reminded. “According to Child Protective Services, he is Harper’s temporary legal guardian. And a shifter. A Johnson shifter.”

  “Ok, but that still doesn’t change the fact that he’s sex on legs,” Polly pointed out. “Or the fact that you went home with him last night.”

  This time I couldn’t resist the urge to burst out laughing, and I’m glad I did. It gave me an excuse for the bright red blush that crept over my cheeks. And that was not the only reaction my body had at the mention of Benjamin Johnson. I also felt a hot tingle between my legs; the same electric jolt I felt last night, when we kissed.

  “Seriously though,” Polly said, scooting a little bit closer to me and lowered her voice. “Did anything happen between you two?”

  I kept my eyes pointed away, because I knew I would just keep blushing if I had to look Polly in the eye.

  “We kissed,” I admitted.

  “What!” Polly gasped, and I hear the soft thud of her cheese stick slip from her fingers and land on the concrete. “Lia! That’s crazy! You never kiss anyone!”

  “I know!” I shushed her, shooting her a quick glare. “And not that it’s any of your business, but I don’t plan on kissing him again. It was a one-time thing.”

  “I wasn’t… I didn’t mean it like a bad thing,” Polly stammered quickly. “I’m just… shocked. He’s not really your type.”

  “My type?” I shot her an inquisitive look. “Or do you mean that I’m not his type?”

  “Well, both I guess
,” Polly shrugged. “He’s not your type, because you’re a total prude who won’t date anything with a pulse… even a vibrator. And you’re not his type because he only seems to date the kind of girls who wear lingerie as formalwear, not to mention the whole animal issue. And honestly I don’t even know how any of that works.”

  “Ok, first of all, I’m not a prude,” I protested, reminding myself to keep my voice down. “I just don’t see the point of wasting my time or effort on a guy that would inevitably lie, cheat, or leave me.”

  “That’s such an unhealthy outlook,” Polly interrupted. “You’ve got to let go of these weird dating hang-ups that you’ve been holding onto for years. Your dad was an asshole, I get it. And some guy broke your heart in high school. But that doesn’t mean all men are assholes. And it’s definitely not a valid reason to never try dating.”

  I ignored what Polly said and I ignored that she’d brought up one of my most vulnerable insecurities.

  “Second of all,” I said, pretending she never interrupted me, “I don’t need a vibrator. There are more fulfilling things in life than sex, you know.”

  “Says the girl who has never had sex,” Polly said, pressing her lips together smugly.

  “I don’t need to have sex to know that it isn’t worth all the heartache and baggage that comes along with it.”

  This was a conversation that Polly and I have had dozens of times. She has never been able to wrap her head around me being a virgin, and I’ve never been able to accept her casual outlook on sex.

  I haven’t told Polly all the reasons why I was so reluctant to have sex. The biggest reason wasn’t about my emotional hang-ups or trust issues, although those were significant factors as well. The biggest reason why I had avoided sex for my entire adult life was because I could never have an orgasm by myself.

  I have tried everything: vibrators, toys, my own hands. Nothing. The closest I’ve gotten was tingles. Little waves that tickled as they pulsed through my veins. Which was not exactly the spine-tingling pleasure that movies and women’s magazines promised me.